I realize I haven’t really delved into WHY I paint, and more specifically why I am working with the subject of Revelations for my Thesis Exhibition. I’m not shy about discussing these topics. In fact, the reason I haven’t written about them can be seen as kind of the opposite; I have TOO MUCH to say about the topics! Maybe this is because my reasons for painting and for depicting Revelations are personal, and integral to who I am…
Nevertheless, I shall try. So, grab a hot cup of
whatever you like to drink (coffee, please!) and let’s just dive right in! 🙂 I’ll just discuss why I paint in this post… Revelations will come soon! 🙂
I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again; the reason I started making art–on a very basic level–was a blessing in disguise. I was involved in theatre all through elementary school, middle school, and the beginning of high school. Suddenly, my sophomore year, during West Side Story, the director said something that exiled me from the stage. She said that deaf people may not be able to act, because they’ll miss their cues. She forced me to quit the play, which also marked the end of my theatre career (at my high school, at least… I’ve done more plays and musicals since then, at other locations).
I was heartbroken and cried like a BABY… I specifically remember the hour following my “discussion” with the director. Long story short (because believe me; this part COULD get very l-o-n-g), I needed a new elective, since I would no longer be enrolling in theatre. I had always been interested in art, and even took a “zero period” art class, which meant that school started at 7:00 for me throughout high school. Needless to say, art was the only elective that made sense, because I DEFiNITELY can’t sing… haha!… and PE wasn’t competitive enough. Funny how things work out, isn’t it?…
So, my junior year of high school, I started getting serious about making art. I still did other things, like soccer, cross country, church activities, and theatre–at the rival high school (heehee)–but art became more important to me. I liked it. I was good at it, if I do say so myself. I decided to take AP art my senior year, and pursue art in college. This decision began the frenzy for school applications, portfolio visits, AP credits and class rankings… whew! I don’t miss THAT craziness!
THANKFULLY, when all was said and done, I ended up at Brevard College in Brevard, NC, studying Studio Art with some AMAZING professors and colleagues. In case you don’t know, Brevard is a GORGEOUS little town near Asheville, and I wouldn’t trade my time there, surrounded by the mountains, for anything! My senior year at Brevard, I was presenting my thesis exhibition, and I chose to center the entire show around my deafness. I’ve talked about this show before, and you can read/see it here! During my exhibition, I stood, rooted in the corner, surrounded by people who were interested in my art and asked questions, which I answered… all night. During that show, I just had this sense of calm and peace; I knew that God wanted me to paint. He has called me to use my utmost for His highest (thank you, Oswald Chambers).
God gives us talents for a REASON. He does not want us to squander them, keeping our gifts to ourselves. What good would that do?! No, He gives us talents to USE them, to bring Him glory. He gave us His son on the cross, and all He wants in return is for us to choose to follow Him and serve Him with our gifts (which, need I remind you, are FROM HIM!) I don’t mean to preach or anything, but this is something I feel strongly about. (Here are some verses about talent, if you feel like taking a gander! 🙂 )
So that is why I paint and make art, in general….Not for me, my professors, or even my clients, but FOR GOD! I think I managed to keep it KIND OF short… remember, I warned you! haha…Like I said, I could go ON and ON about this; it’s personal and convicting. I don’t just create my artwork; God creates it through me, and I am His vessel. To me, the most successful artworks I’ve created are the ones that just come together… I don’t always understand how or when, but I know a sense of calm when I work on them. I know that this is God, guiding me to do my small portion of His kingdom work. That being said, I’m not sorry if this is preachy… it’s just how I feel, and you can take it or leave it! 🙂
As always, peace, love and art!